Lesson I Learned #1:
I launched into 2024, promising to honor the Creative in me, after spending far too long focusing on me just as an Attorney.
I wanted an outlet to share my non-fiction and fiction writing, and I also wanted to write and sing music, as well.
I decided to launch a YouTube Channel to house all these loves of my life.
But, that raised a bunch of…feelings.
To put it mildly, I felt uncomfortable.
So, I took comfort, first, in the cerebral:
I researched. A lot.
For months.
While writing on Medium and Substack.
Then, I realized, I’m wasting too much time.
Hiding in research.
When I already know enough to start.
So, I gave myself the kick in the ass I needed with Mindset Reset #1:
I told myself, “Start your engine! Just drive!”
Lesson I Learned #2:
I’m a Type A, go-getter type of person.
But, I’ve also learned to apply the VICTUS Method to recalibrate my mindset so it aligns with what my body needs, which is a well-regulated Nervous System.
That’s why I wrote this story to honor my feelings, to NOT push myself beyond my initial capacity.
The truth was, I was too scared to jump straight into making a video.
So, instead, I decided to release an audio recording of my singing instead.
I did, and you can listen to it here on Soundcloud and Substack.
Lesson I Learned #3:
My MVP was easy to identify: a simple video to introduce my YouTube Channel.
I recorded it on Friday 5-10-24.
I planned to post it on Monday, 5-13-24, because that was the perfect day to launch my Channel: 5-13-24.
Can you see why?
5-13-24 = 5-4-3-2-1🚀
Plus, I had a MASSIVE why for doing it on that date, but I’ll save that for Mindset Reset #8, below.
Lesson I Learned #4:
Failure arrived fast.
On Monday, 5-13-24, just as I was about to complete the form that’s required before you publish a video on YouTube, I realized, “Wait, you don’t have a Thumbnail!”
“Or, a Title!”
Ugh. That meant another hour or so fiddling with Photoshop, to create a cutout of my image.
I used a still from my video.
Without the “oh my gosh,” shocked face, or finger-pointing-at-the-title stance that seems to be all the rage in most of the Thumbnails that the top YouTubers create.
(Perhaps I’ll try a good pointer finger in my next video. Might be hard to do while keeping a straight face, but I promise to try.)
Still, I found it surprisingly hard to make a cutout of my image, or colored outline around my figure.
Luckily, the title and layout weren’t too bad to figure out.
I managed to do it!
On schedule: 5-13-24 = 5-4-3-2-1🚀
DONE.
Lesson I Learned #6:
“You will iterate,” I reminded myself, and I could feel my stress dissipate.
It made me realize: RELAXING is so underrated.
Relaxing is incredibly important to me.
More than I ever thought before.
Yes, in the past, I used to push myself beyond what was healthy.
But not anymore.
Throughout this audio/video recording process, I took regular breaks and reset my expectations:
about what I hoped to accomplish for this audio/video, and reminded myself that I could improve on the next one if I didn’t get it right with this opportunity.
This helped me to feel so much better, no matter what I was doing: recording, editing, creating, or uploading.
Lesson I Learned #7:
As explained in my this post, when I was learning how to produce my 1st audio recording of me singing, I had an epiphany: I discovered I entered a state of flow when I was learning.
I really got “in the zone” when I was learning how to mix and master the recording with audio production technology.
I knew I was in a state of flow because any worry I’d had about putting myself out there, about posting in public, had disappeared.
And, I’m relieved to say, I achieved the same Flow state when I was learning how to record, edit, and produce my 1st video, too.
It’s clear to me now that I can enter flow when I’m learning something new and learning how to apply it.
I have so much fun.
I get lost in learning things and applying them. That’s when it’s the most fun for me.
And, like it was the last time I hit publish for my audio, when it came time to hit publish for my video, I wasn’t scared anymore.
The anticipation of doing it was worse than doing it.
Lesson I Learned #9:
Emotionally, creating audio or video content as a Creative feels very different from working as an Attorney.
In most non-creator jobs, you’ve got a boss or manager or, in my situation, a literal case, with tasks that you can easily identify, to do.
There’s a lot less autonomy, in that regard.
But, there’s a benefit to a typical 9-5, too:
You know, generally, how much time it will take to do something. Because you’re familiar with it. You’ve done it before.
Or have someone or some resource that’s close enough to guide you.
In contrast, creating audio and video as a Creative felt like The Big Unknown. And that made it far too difficult to determine how much time it would take me to do each and every thing.
So, it was good I had taken so much time to research before diving in.
But that mile-marker had passed.
What I really needed this time was to schedule STOPPING.
As in, no more research.
No more trying to decipher how to make it “perfect,” as if perfection’s even possible.
No more ways to improve upon anything, before starting.
Just get started.
That’s what I needed to pencil in.
A Start Date!
I added it to my calendar.
Then I got out of my head and I did it:
✅published my 1st audio recording on Soundcloud and Substack on 🎤5-3-24.
✅published my 1st video recording on YouTube on 📺 5-13-24.
Lesson I Learned #10:
As soon as I hit publish, I felt fantastic!
I reminded myself, “You honored the commitment you’d made to yourself. You did what you promised yourself you would do.”
And I celebrated: “You got over your initial fear! You let the real you be SEEN!”
One fear was conquered. Not forever. But this time. With the audio. And the next time. With the video.
It’s no guarantee that the fear won’t be there again. Of course, it will be.
But, I got in my first two reps.
And that made it worth it to me.
And had a blast celebrating with my family.
Attorney, Artist, and Author of THE OBSIDIAN CHRONICLES. Writer who believes in the power of words. Life-long learner who’s passionate about the science and art of self-improvement.
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